Get a Grip Serena!!!


The past couple weeks have been tough for me. Cassie headed across the pond to Kenya. Bruce was in Alabama and this week Carter headed to Purdue. Then Cassie moved into a house with a friend to house sit for the next 12 days. Myself, well I stayed mom and reality hit me how much life will be changing. I was a mess! I'm not going to lie. I cried my eyes out. I didn't sleep well and I turned into a huge grump. I'm not ready for this. I love having my little family together. I love how we eat dinner together pretty much every night. Our table gets really loud with laughing and talking and you can count on not having a dull moment. I like do all the wash. I love cooking and baking for them. I love every second of it.


All this growing up stuff is forcing me to look at ME. For the past 18 years it's been all about my kids. Now my kids are doing their thing all the time. I sometimes feel like I'm not needed as much. UGH! Pretty sad moment. :(

Last night I had reached my limit of feeling BLAH with a captial B.

I had decided to text a couple of my friends to see who would be down for hanging out. I was starting to feel even more blah because it was pretty much looking like noone was going to be able to make it. Finally I got a text from one of my friends Kristi and we had decided to head over to Hacienda for a drink or two.

I'm so thankful that we were able meet up! Kristi also has an 18 year old and could totally relate to the whole "finding me." It's differant when your kids start growing up. It forces you to figure out what you like, which isn't a bad thing, but where do you even start? Kristi suggested I start a book club. I'm thinking that might be a great idea! I'm open to meeting new friends.......notice I say friends and not people because one thing is certain I will make friends quick! :) Not sure what else I will look into. I do know that I really need to get a grip and get a grip quick. No matter how many tears I shed or grumpy I get it still doesn't change the fact that my kids will keep growing up. Who knows! Maybe it's time I start making a bucket list and start crossing things off. This process in life is only going to be as painful as I make it. So here's to finding me and the next stage of life!